Always on Sunday (47)

To be honest, I am right at the moment pretty grumpy because of a few things but as I am late with this entry anyways, but I´ll deliver you this flashback onto the week anyways 😉 Enjoy it tonight!


// Done //
– Application writing and one job interview
– Physiotherapy as usual
– Hoop lesson
– Preparing things t send in for my final university “go”
– Lüneburg for swimming and a walk with my boyfriend together
– Still struggling a bit with the side effects of the cortison injection
– Grocery shopping
– Cooking from the Kochhaus cooking book

// Eaten //
I was pretty much back on track again in regards of WeightWatchers, and that made me pretty happy…pretty much because there´s been simply still too many sweets that I gotta be cutting down, but that´s also gonna work – as there soon are no sweets left at home hahahaha

// Bought //
Groceries, and I think that´s it mostly…so nothing extraordinary that I can actually think of – okay, the flight to Finland for my introduction day at university but that´s it…

// Listened to //
Apocalyptica, some Deep Insight and loads of radio actually when I was on my way somewhere – usually I am just not willing to decide anymore what I wanna listen to…I really hate deciding that lately, no idea why though…

// Watched //
Rarely any specifically chosen music, and if so it was Apocalyptica, as I am still not getting over my fail with the With Full Force festival to be totally honest… And their “Shadowmaker” has always been an album that gives me loads of comfort, and as my mood was swinging, that was what I needed.

// Read //
Nothing – really. I´ve been a lazy and uneducated woman this week, and I don´t mind. I really am sick and tired of reading the news as it´s all negative anyways and somehow I haven´t yet found back to reading books…hopefully that´ll be back soon, because once I start my studies I will be reading for the studies only again I fear…

// Played //
Sims 4, and Sims 4, and even more of Sims 4 and…that was pretty much it. I kinda got sucked up in it, at times I just wanted to play half an hour later and then two hours later, I checked the time and nearly fell off my chair because I again “wasted” so much time…

// Happy about //
The news on my study place and that I am accepted and even made it with 80/100 points – I should be totally happy about the whole but somehow the perfectionist woke up again and says that 80 points wouldn´t be good enough hahaha Whatever, it´s party time!

// Angry about //
Ex-emyplosers being so stubborn or unable to quickly send me their reference letters on English. So I had to spend time on translating and then being bitched at for not so amazing translations – well thanks, I am no translator yet not willing to spend any money on that…god damnit. This is really so annoying.

// Wished for //
…all the damned G20 shit being over already. The things they start already now are annoying and it´s gonna be so much fun during the coming weekend because of which I cannot see my boyfriend because I had to go through the whole difficult area…so nope…

// Dreamt about //
Loads of bullshit, really. Loads of things reated to my degree programme, the tough mudder run coming up, and everything all mashed together and put into surreal contexts…

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Always on Sunday (46)


I know that I skipped a Sunday, but somehow the post didn´t really want to come out right so I paused it for once again – today I will try to give my best and fill it as usual 😉


// Done //
– Not much of training since my unplanned 8.6km run last weekend
– Application writing
– Much relaxing because I didn´t feel too good and needed me-time
– Physiotherapy as usual
– With Full Force Festival with all its fails

// Eaten //
– Asian take-away
– Too much toast bread
– Too much sweets and ice-cream
=> my weight says “hiii, I am sooooo hiiiigh”
I really need to change this now again, I need to cut down the sweets and then return to all the healthy foods and less sauces

// Bought //
– Tent
– Food, toilet chips (for using a better toilet) at the festival and two cabs (thanks for that, festival, where is the shuttle?)
– General grocery shopping

// Listened to //
– Apocalyptica
– Apocalyptica
– Have I mentioned Apocalyptica?

// Watched //
My usual series “Alles was zählt” and “Mein Kind, dein Kind” – especially the latter is always hilarious, when seeing how people educate and treat their kids and everything and then battle who is doing better…When looking at all this I can just be happy that I grew up how I grew up in the end ^^

// Read //
Nothing pretty much xD Surely the general news here and there, because it´s important to be up to date but no book, no articles or anything…the week was over too quickly.

// Played //
“Sims 4”
still due to the new additional packs, becaus ethose really give it loads of new contents to explore and especially the fact that you now have the chance with three jobs to also participate actively in the daily life…
Also, my boyfriend and I played “Overcooked” this Friday – a videogame where you need to, together, cook certain meals in different tricky situations…it´s so much fun but clearly needs quite some strategy and loooads of precise communication xD

// Thought //
Thought full of hate, frustration, being upset…I really don´t wanna write all of them down, unless you are into several pages of ranting 😉

// Happy about //
My boyfriend being there for me, always supporting me, always worried if I am safe or not, always an open ear and a shoulder to lean on – you might say that it´s normal for a relationship, but I value these things still no matter what. And this relationship makes me happy as nothing else.

// Angry about //
Well, no surprise- first off, the weather. I hate this fucker to an extend that there is no words for this to still put it really nicely. And then the organization of the festival is what makes me really angry. Never seen such a terribly chaotic festival where people are seemingly not even prepared for the cancellation of a festival day and what comes iwth this and the bad weather. Hilarious.

// Wished for //
The info on my masters programme to finally come in…but no, they wait until the very last moment and will only publish it next week, which is driving me mad and sad to be fully honest.

// Dreamt about //
About a great Apocalyptica show, about turning off the mind for a while – yeah, no, nice dream it was. And besides this all kinds of odd dreams that I cannot properly recall, which is maybe better that way xD

Always on Sunday (45)


I should really somewhen give this blog entry a different name “flashback to last week, somewhen during the week. Eventually”. But I am having so much to blog about and so little power to sit down every day and write it all down…


// Done //
– Hoop playtime
– Dreaming of vacations away from Hamburg
– Editing photos
– Crappiest run ever since I started running

// Eaten //
– Sweets. Have I mentioned…sweets?
– Loads of meat again and too little fish

// Bought //
– Tickets to an exhibition
– Ordered another pair of trail running shoes
– Ordered sports supplements
– Bought sport clothing

// Listened to //
Not much, I don´t really feel like listening to music actively right now, all I want is mostly silence – or I am watching Alster Radio, a station that is playing mostly rock somgs when I go somewhere as I am totally not willing to make decisions in regards of what to choose for listening to.

// Watched //
The usual daily series, some documentaries and the usual house building series when being with my boyfriend…yes, it´s been a terribly lame week when it comes to what I watched, but I cannot change that anymore as you might know xD

// Read //
Nothing. Simply nothing. After my entrance exam I literally haven´t read a thing anymore, because I somehow don´t feel like having the peace of mind to sit down and just read. I wish I could have back my skill to sink into a book and a story again…instead I am restless.

// Played //
Started playing Sims 4 with all the new add ons – and well, I think it´s gonna be excessively playing for quite a while again, at least when I am not busy with doing other things like sports and application writing…

// Thought //
That the damned tax office could maybe eventually finally soon work on my tax return papers and giv me the money back so I could think about vacations or a sport course and such…but no, take your time, it´s summer, go on vacation, have noone else work on these papers…I have time…

// Happy about //
Time with my boyfriend. And that´s it already pretty much – maybe I need to boost my fun and ego again with starting sewing again ^^

// Angry about //
Myself, my insomnia, life…everything to be honest at times, simply because if things just go wrong I am currently not having much of a frustration tolerance anymore. Either things go well, or I am all upset within minutes to be saying the least, and that´s happened a lot last week. And watching me fail even though I prepared and gave my best is just so painful…and then you wonder if you could´ve not done even more and prepared even better and start getting angry at yourself without any proper reason.

// Wished for //
The entrance exam results, my money from the tax office…many things that did not happen. It´s the often lacking light at the end of the tunnel.

// Dreamt about //
Being fat again, not finding a job and being Hartz IV living in a terrible area and not being able to do my studies and being alone.

Always on Sunday (44)

Always on Sunday has been…postponed to Wednesday – I first wanted to really post about my Finland trip, and I am aware of the fact I have not done this flashback last week…simply too busy!


// Done //
– Finland with entrance exam, running and loads of walking and photographing
– Cooking class
– Went to the cinema for Pirates of the Caribbean
– Started editing photos from my Finland trip

// Eaten //
– Pizza and other fast food
– Finnish sweets and dishes
– Too expensive salad

// Bought //
– The tickets for the cinema
– Food- Lonkero and chocolate to take home with me
– Cross running shoes

// Listened to //
Apocalyptica as it is my general motivational and comforting music, but also Madina Lake´s “House of Cards” – the latter has a huge meaning to me in regards of entrance exams and Jyväskylä, so it´s been on repeat a lot.

// Watched //
As mentioned before, I watched the new Pirates of the Caribbean part called “Dead Men Tell no Tales” (the German translation of the title is hilariously off track though) – and my boyfriend and I watched it with original voices, so in English. And I enjoyed it a lot because it´s had a good combination of action, humor and feelings…and last but not least, they added a character called “Carina” to the movie, which felt pretty odd to be saying the least xD

// Read //
Only my pre-reading material until the day of the exam, and afterwards nothing too exciting actually, just some news bits here and there, because you cannot go without it when browsing on the internet and being on Social Media…but no really exciting article or anything.

// Played //
Nothing really, just some casual games on my tablet because I wasn´t really sitting much on my compzuter – too busy, and the on the road I only had my tablet and my phone. And since I am not anyone with games on my phone, only the tablet was left – and that needs Wifi 😉 So yes, I was really restricted in my playing.

// Thought //
So many thoughts about how I was seemingly the youngest one in my entrance exam, and how misplaced I felt at times because many people just felt so important oh so “omg look at me what I can do and how many years of experience I have and you lil girl got nothing” – really made me wonder what is wrong with people to act like this. But as I am certain this is not really an appreciated behaviour in the exam, I might be lucky that they acted like this. But still – remember, you always meet at least twice in life…

// Happy about //
Having done this entrance exam and having survived, because I am still really afraid of it…but I managed, and that´s what counts. Also it was great to go out to the movies with my boyfriend – my fave human with my fave movie…couldn´t be any better ^^

// Angry about //
Germans not knowing personal space. For whatever´s sake, don´t squeeze onto me. Just do not do it damnit. There is enough space in most cases, so leave me alone, do not touch me or anything…gnah. How I hate that about central Europe.

// Wished for //
Already having the results of the exam and interview, as well as having my boyfriend with me to make it easier for me to relax ^^

// Dreamt about //
I dreat about only having half of the 100 possible points in the entrance exam and would be the 46th in the ranking, aka 1 place too low in the ranking to be accepted at university…

Always on Sunday (43)


Always on Sunday has been…postponed to Thursday – sorry guys, it´s been busy times and I just couldn´t really sit down, relax and have a go at writing this summary.


// Done //
– Learning for my entrance exam
– Preparing for job interviews and doing job interviews
– Working out every day
– Physiotherapy
– Celebrating that 1. FC Köln is soon playing internationally
– Projekt Wasserwoche (project: water week) – only drinkign water for a week and nothing else

// Eaten //
– Pancakes
– Selfmade burgers made of toasties and the normal burger ingredients

// Bought //
Nothing special as far as I can remember, but I might simply be too old to remember 😉 Joking aside, food things, drinks and that´s it as I actually have everything that I needed.

// Listened to //
Mostly RadioAlster, because I am too lazy to actively choose my music unless I am at home and in need of cheering up music in the evening whilst finishing off the day.

// Watched //
My usual series, it´s become my daily business to heck for new episodes of certain series – but I really cannot wait for Vikings bringing up a new season, I am sooooooo sick and tired of waiting, it´s crazy. It´s really a series that I miss loads!

// Read //
I read an article about neuroscience and how oxytocin is the base for having trust in others, how chronic stress – amongst other factors – is killing the production of it and everything related to how to create a culture of trust in businesses – you can ead it **HERE**
Same goes for “Leadership in context” which I just started working on, so no summary on this one – but have your own read **HERE**

// Played //
Sims 4 again thanks to the mods that I added, and it´s clearly become more fun again and a nice break in between learning and preparing job interview and related things – just great for turning off the mind for a while.

// Thought //
That I really gotta pass this damned entrance exam not only because I really wanna study this degree programme but also because I so need a success to boost my damned ego that slowly but steadily is rotting.

// Happy about //
The weather – mostly at least because I enjoy the sunny weather, even though I could do with a tad more wind and only around 22°C, but the sunny weather feels good on mind and body I think.

// Angry about //
Humans, money, life…sometimes you are just angry at everything and everyone, and partially in the evenings that´s what I lived through. And maybe angry with myself most for not being able to fully focus on applications and the entrance exam and that concentrating whilst switching from one topic to the other has been terrible tough for me…

// Wished for //
Less workouts, more unhealthy food, more being lazy…but being caught up in a hamster wheel like I am, it´s gonna remain a dream I suppose.

// Dreamt about //
Odd combinations of concerts, countries, unknown people…

Always on Sunday (42)

This week was a busy one, and it really feels tough to recapture – I hope I haven´t forgotten too much in this little recapture, but so many things come and go that it really is hard to keep track on it.


// Done //
– Job interview in Berlin
– Application writing & job interview planning
– Learning for entrance exam in Jyväskylä
– Planning trip for my entrance exams
– A day at Heidepark

// Eaten //
– Meat and fish, mostly with my Shirataki noodles
– Asian takeaway
– A crepe at heidepark

// Bought //
– Flights to Finland
– Trains in Finland & Germany
– Hotel in Finland
– The usual food
– A new jogging arm bag thingy for my phone as the old one doesn´t work anymore

// Listened to //
– Radio
– Apocalyptica
– Placebo

// Watched //
A lot of series, as it nicely fit into my short evenings and in between learning breaks, and household breaks and everything – and yes, it´s been mostly trash series on TV, running mostly in the background. I really struggled to sit down and really actively watch something unless I was with my boyfriend.

// Read //
I read an article about neuroscience and how oxytocin is the base for having trust in others, how chronic stress – amongst other factors – is killing the production of it and everything related to how to create a culture of trust in businesses – you can ead it **HERE**
Same goes for “Leadership in context” which I just started working on, so no summary on this one – but have your own read **HERE**

// Played //
Nothing, no time, and I somehow preferred to sleep every second possible instead of playing video games…maybe this is soon gonna change when I have an add on for my Sims 4 game…

// Thought //
That things are getting too much right now, the bulk of job interviews, rejections, traveling for job interviews, and the the planning and learning for the entrance exam

// Happy about //
Happy and excited about being invited to the entrance exams for my maste´s programme at the end of the month at my old university where I also did my bachelor´s degress and really grateful for having received this chance. Hopefully gonna use this chance.

// Angry about //
People not reading applications properly, then being surprised I do not bring certain skills that were not even mentioned in the job ad and are even more surprised when I tell them I live in a different city than where the company and job interview is and need to travel back home 2.5h. This is what I totally call fail.

// Wished for //
Having gotten to know about being invited to the entrane exams earlier so that I could have still gotten better flights, as it is hilarious in a negative way how expensive everything is now when bookng rather spontaneously.

// Dreamt about //
Loads of odd things with bands, different countries and creepy things…stuff you mostly do not want to remember, because i really makes you doubt about your sanity…

Always on Sunday (41)


Wow, just did my first 6km run and I feel now kinda destroyed, but happy – all he training that I started for the obstacle mud run Tough Mudder Half in July will take quite some of my free time but it motivates me and I like pushing my limits as I did today.

Now it is time for some blogging 😉


// Done //
– 1 job interview
– First hoop lessons again
– House scores – blergh, should have done more
– Writing applications & handling job agency issues
– Sewing  a bit, but not as much as I had planned to
– Photo editing- I had planned so much more, shame on me when seeing what I amanged
– Stock holders meeting of Lufthansa
– Baking cookies in shape of a meerkat

// Eaten //
– Too much, and too little fruits
– Amazingly tasty selfbaked cookies
– Too little fish and too much meat
– Lizza-Pizza, selfmade

// Bought //
– Food
– Ticket for the obstacle mud run Tough Mudder Half

// Listened to //
– Faey
– Placebo
– Random playlists on Amazon Music

// Watched //
– “Mein Kind, Dein Kind” – Nope, I clearly do not want kids. When watching this you often might think you could do better, but at the same time you see what assholes kids can be – so no thank you. Not for me.
– “Alarm für Cobra 11” – I wonder when it happens that the main person quits for whatever reasons, as it happened with the others – because I kinda grew up with this actor being part, and he clearly is the reason why I am watching it – in addition to me knowing where they film and shoot the series as it´s around Cologne which is still my hometown. 
– “Nikola” –
Always watched it when I was younger, and somehow I stick to it – even have a DVD of it, but having it on video on demand makes it kinda nicer – because every week you get new parts of it to re-watch ^^

// Read //
A lot about how to prepare for the Tough Mudder Half run and what to pack, what not to do, what to eat and everything – I wanna do the best preparation possible, and for some things I need alternatives how to train certain muscles so I am also planning how to do this…

// Played //
Nothing, somehow the week just ran past without having had a second to really play anything…maybe next week I will find the time again 😉

// Thought //
How I would handle if I got a job in Berlin and everything…with the traveling and such stuff…and if I would still find a new job in Hamburg and all of this…too many thoughts in my head to really grab a single one and properly elaborate.

// Happy about //
That the summer dress that I sewed for someone fits and is being liked by that person – full relief, as I was really worried it might not fit.
Also, I managed my 6km run off my training plan for the Tough Mudder Half obstacle run, and felt amazing afterwards – what a great feeling!

// Angry about //
Companies coming back to me after I had contacted them after more than a month has passed by since the very last talks that were had. And still they needed a damned full week after I emailed them to tell me they had already found a different candidate. This my dear company, is not the style you can treat people.

Also I am angry about the fact that some people think it´s right to make fun of me wanting to take part in these obstacle mud runs – and saying I´d need vacation afterwards and would not even be able to make it. But fuck it, thanks for the extra amount of motivation- How can you be so ignorant instead of supportive…

// Wished for //
Less troubles, less discussions, more positive instead of frustrating news and things that happened.

// Dreamt about //
Nothing, really. No dreams that you have usually at nighttime, or rather: I cannot properly remember those, and maybe that´s better this way.

Always on Sunday (40)

A late release of the blog entry today, because I was busy with cleaning, then sewing and then going for a walk – I had to use the beautiful weather, forgot about the time and then was starving. So this kinda shows the reasons why 😉


// Done //
– 2 job interviews
– Feeling sick – and needing to stay in bed, inside and unable to do sports
– House scores – the weekly necessary evil
– Writing applications
– Sewing something that I was asked for – and I am terribly worried it is not gonna fit xD
– Photo editing (yes seriously, I am back to editing photos from Hamburg Metal Dayz 2016)

// Eaten //
– Asian takeaway (rice and meat and some veggies)
– Loads of veggie and fruit
– A good balance between meat and fish
– My beloved chocolate pancakes that I really couldn´t be living without anymore

// Bought //
– Food and more food and even more food
– New baking bowl as my old one broke
– Something for Mother´s Day already
– New fitness stuff from Gymqueen

// Listened to //
– Faey
– They have their new album “Honey & Cinnamon” out, so please go and do me a favor and check it out, you will thank we later on!
– Apocalyptica – Mostly the “Shadowmaker” album because I wasn´t feeling too well mentally and this album always just cheered me up a load!

// Watched //
– “Die Kochprofis”
– That moment when you see a chef mix alcohol into his salad sauce and probably will not even inform guests about the fact that there is alcohol in it…this just scares the hell out of me, really. And when I see in general how they cook and everything – well, no thanks. No surprise that noone wants to go and eat there even though the location so so freaking beautiful and would be a dream to have good food there…
– “Mein Kind, Dein Kind” – it´s about two families comparing their style of having their kids grow up – totally hilarious how some poeple think it´s okay to have their kids grow up and how they are being take care of. Scary as hell.

// Read //
Nothing specific really, here and there a bit about fitness food, lactose free products and all of this – so yeah I think it´s been mostly about food and healthy food choices.

// Played //
Well, a little session of “Catherine” at my boyfriend´s place, but that´s it. I wish I had a keyboard and mouse without cable so I could play stuff on my TV instead of needing to sit on the computer all the time which is not too inviting right at the moment somehow.

// Thought //
I´ve been thinking a lot about how depressions and anxiety have changed me since my teenager years, and especially how my sudden dismissal and unemployment has kinda fuelled many of these anxities. I always find it important to really reflect on my behaviour, because otherwise I´d have never noticed that I am panically checking if all windows are really closed and worrying if I did so and if I did lock the door – and that all literally just started with the moment where this “I need to survive with not much money”-feeling came into my life. And turned me into a control freak to ensure that I am not also losing something else than “just” my job as it had been. I am nevertheless happy that this gradually becomes less and less, yet I still have bad days where I feel down anyways and go nuts again…

// Happy about //
Sometimes about being able to sleep in – especially when I had a bad night or so, then it is precious to be able to sleep long in the mornings. And being lazy and sleepy until lunchtime is also sometimes nice, but I´d prefer to have a reason to get up fully motivated.

// Angry about //
The fact that everyone gives discounts for pupils, students, disabled and even retired people – I don´t get it, often students and retired people just have the same amount or ore money per month than I do, and being someone who actively works on getting out of unemployment and back into employment, I don´t get it. I seriously do not get it, but maybe that´s just the frustrated me about my financial situation.

// Wished for //
The application marathon to be over, but instead it´s been another around 2 weeks of waiting and hoping, and I really wished for me being able to stop hoping and be more objective and everything simply to minimize a possible frustrating outcome or anything like this.

// Dreamt about //
About weird Easter eggs that are chocolate from the outside, but like a honeycomb in the inside – but in a way that you could still eat it. Really odd, how I saw myself and my boyfriend robbing on the floor to find these eggs that additionally were also trying to hide and run away. I really have no idea at all what on earth this is all meant to tell me, except for maybe being crazy 😉

Always on Sunday (39)


To be honest, this introduction text really becomes harder and harder each and every time I am supposed to writing it, simply because the content just comes right underneath and I suck at small talk (written and spoken, to be honest) ^^


// Done //
– 2 job interviews
– Application writing
– Trying to reach my daily goal
– Feeling worn out and partially really sick with

// Eaten //
– Tuna steak, self grilled for the very first time
– Too much meat to be honest, I really need to cut it down again – but my bbq grill invites me to eat so much of it
– Greek food again at the restaurant
– Rests of my self-baked bread

// Bought //
– Food, drink
– An ironing board
– Booked a cooking course for my boyfriend and me

// Listened to //
– Faey
– Apocalyptica
– Gus G

// Watched //
– “Türkisch für Anfänger”
– A German series that is about a German family and a Turkish family becoming a patchwork family and all the troubles that come with it – all made in a funny and humorous way with a tad of exaggeration
– No idea how it´s called, but it´s a Netflix series on Nature in the Americas – pretty cool pictures and interesting stuff, but in case you are not into insects, you are so gonna enjoy some of the scenes sooo much. Not.
YouTube videos on sewing and how to sew certain materials…

// Read //
An article on how to clean up our life – well, basically also covering the wardrobe and everything, and it´s something I also need to learn. Because I tend to do more than just one “project” a day and then things become just stressful and not freeing and relievng again…

// Played //
– “Codenames”
– a card game where it´ all about guessing the right words that are being laid out on the table, described by the other person with just one word – crappy description, if you wanna know more and more in detail, have a look *here*
– “Catherine” – it´s a video platform puzzler game – and to be honest I am totally too lazy to describe the whole, all I will say that I suck at playing with a console, but I need a while until I can really do that well – anyways, read more *here*

// Thought //
Which things I could be doing in my free time, as I am always on the look and search for new things to try out and find crazy people joining me. So this is kinda what I spent a lot of time on, and my list of possible things to do over the time grows and grows, and that´s kinda nice – just sucks I need money for that all ^^

// Happy about //
Having had a tiny little weightloss – it´s better than nothing. A tiny little spark of hope that it is going a step forward maybe.

// Angry about //
Companies that promise you to come back to you after a certain amount of time and then either need x-times as long as promised without notice, or never come back to you at all. I remember that one company where I spent like 3h of job interview (2 interviews in total) and never heard back from them even though they were so looking for a new project manager. These things are the ones that make me so freaking angry. Who do they think they are? Superior? Fuck I hate this ignorance, they are no damn better than someone who is JUST unemployed and looking for a job.

// Wished for //
Good news. In regards of a job. A second invite for a job interview is not enough anymore to make me happy, as I just wait for things to blow up after this second talk. And then I would get the no anyways after having invested even more hopes and time and power into the whole.

// Dreamt about //
About moving to a lonely island, where you only get to by boat and are the only ones living on there, have tons of nature, can grow your own food, keep your animals and everything…probably describes how I feel about humans at times xD

Always on Sunday (38)

This Sunday has somehow passed by so quickly that I couldn´t even figure it out because…man where did the day go? I was busy and tired at the same time, that I started the blog entry at lunch time – and didn´t get it all done until just now. Between walks, and sports and everything, time slipped through my fingers 😉


// Done //
– Job interview and writing applications, as well as coordinating coming job interviews
– Working out and trying to really get back on track with Weight Watchers and getting my body into a proper shape – and that´s harder than I thought somehow
– Baking bread and banana bread
– Received my electric mini grill and did a first little barbecue in my kitchen with marinated meat nd fell in love with it
– Sewing – finally again and it feels goot to be back on it!
– A lot of walks, no matter if rainy or not

// Eaten //
– Banana bread, selfmade – same for self-baked normal bread
– Casserole and even normal pasta
– Probably too much meat
– CHocolate ice cream, oh how I missed it

// Bought //
– Nothing special, just the usual stuff one needs for surviving 😉

// Listened to //
– Gus G and James Paul Luna playing an acoustic set
– Faey
-Versengold

// Watched //
– Shameless
– I finished off this series as only the first 5 seasons of it are freely available on Amazon Prime – and now I am desperate because I really got used to watching it every day and seriously got hooked on it and then booom, two seasons remaining, but I would need to pay for it…damnit!
– Die Kochprofis – always makes me shudder and shake my head and at the same time wonder if I should probably open a restaurant or similar, because I could top the level presented there. What is actually a pity is, that one of the chefs that has been there for ages left the show and now is replaced by changing other great chefs…it is like an essential part is gone missing, feels weird somehow. But let´s see how things will be developing over time.

// Read //
Already earlier on I had read an article about the restoration of the “Tomb of Christ” with its church around and even though I am totally not religious or anything, I find it kinda fascinating. The building itself, and the believe that Jesus would be buried down there…okay, I have a smirk on my face when I even wrte this because I don´t even think this is the place, but that´s just un-religious me. Furthermore I don´t even think it brings you closer to God if you kneel down in front of some tomb where he is believed to be buried. Anyways, that´s not really why I am writing about this, but it seems like during the restoration, they are facing some problems and even there is the risk of it all falling into pieces as it is built on not so stable grounds, read about it **here**

// Played //
Planet Coaster again, it is like my substitute for not being able to hop onto rollercoasters again unless I wanna risk my neck and shoulders being all fucked up again…at least I think that this is the reason why I am partially playing so much with this game…

// Thought //
That I really need to expand my job search more onto the surrounding cities as well, no matter how much I enjoy Hamburg and its people, I have to find a job and either communte or find a different solution. But I really need and want a damned job, it´s more and more getting me frustrated and permanently upset. And this is not how I want to be, and probably also not how the people around me want me to be.

// Happy about //
Having my anti-allergic pills, because without them I´d have to lock myself up in m apartment, not go outside and not even open the windows…I am really happy that my skin-doctor didn´t have any problems in giving me a new pack of those pills back then, they really save me even though I still do have my problems with itchy eyes and such, but I can handle that without a problem.

// Angry about //
The fact that my flexibility work is stagnating, no improvements to be see at all and this just drives me nuts as I am doing it more or less 5 days a week for 40-50minutes each time. At the start a lot of progress was visible immediately but now…nothing. It rather feels like I am doing steps backwards and I have no idea why.

// Wished for //
Proper sunny spring weather to be back, but maybe without all the pollen shit because…allergies. But april weather really kills my nerves, going for walks has become nearly impossible because you never know if you will get soaked the next second…this is no fun anymore, especially because I have to get my steps done and need good weather. So yeah, good weather and the usual like no allergies, a job and such…

// Dreamt about //
Nothing in particular, odd dreams, stuff I can hardly remember when waking up…maybe it is better that way – and I really think it is if my brain leaves me alone 😉