30 Days of Music / 30 Tage voller Musik

Day 01 – Your favourite song // Dein Lieblingssong
Day 02 – Your least favourite song // Der Song, den du am wenigsten magst
Day 03 – A song that makes you happy // Ein Lied, das dich fröhlich macht
Day 04 – A song that makes you sad // Ein Lied, das dich traurig macht
Day 05 – A song that reminds you of someone // Ein Lied, das dich an jemanden erinnert
Day 06 – A song that reminds you of somewhere // Ein Lied, das dich an irgendeinen Ort erinnert
Day 07 – A song that reminds you of a certain event // Ein Lied, das dich an ein gewisses Event erinnert
Day 08 – A song that you know all the words to // Ein Lied, von dem du alle Wörter kennst
Day 09 – A song that you can dance to // Ein Lied, zu dem du tanzen kannst
Day 10 – A song that makes you fall asleep // Ein Lied, das dich zum Einschlafen bringt
Day 11 – A song from your favorite band // Ein Lied deiner Lieblingsband
Day 12 – A song from a band you hate // Ein Lied von einer Band, die du hasst
Day 13 – A song that is a guilty pleasure // Ein Lied, das ein Vergnügen mit Gewissensbissen für dich ist
Day 14 – A song that no one would expect you to love // Ein Lied, von dem niemand erwartet, dass du es liebst
Day 15 – A song that describes you // Ein Lied, das dich beschreibt
Day 16 – A song that you used to love but now hate // Ein Lied, dass du mal geliebt hast, jetzt aber nicht ausstehen kannst
Day 17 – A song that you hear often on the radio // EIn Lied, das du oft im Radio hörst
Day 18 – A song that you wish you heard on the radio // Ein Song, von dem du dir wünscht, dass es im Radio laufen würde
Day 19 – A song from your favorite album // Ein Lied von deinem Lieblings-Album
Day 20 – A song that you listen to when you’re angry // Ein Lied, das du hörst wenn du wütend bist
Day 21 – A song that you listen to when you’re happy // Ein Lied, das du anhörst wenn du gut gelaunt bist
Day 22 – A song that you listen to when you’re sad // Ein Lied, das du hörst, wenn du traurig bist
Day 23 – A song that you want to play at your wedding // Ein Lied, das auf deiner Hochzeit gespielt werden soll
Day 24 – A song that you want to play at your funeral // Ein Lied, das auf deiner Beerdigung gespielt werden soll
Day 25 – A song that makes you laugh // Ein Lied, das dich zum Lachen bringt
Day 26 – A song that you can play on an instrument / Ein Lied, welches du auf einem Instrument spielen kannst
Day 27 – A song that you wish you could play // Ein Lied, von dem du dir wünscht, dass du es spielen könntest
Day 28 – A song that makes you feel guilty // Ein Lied, dass dich schuldig fühlen lässt
Day 29 – A song from your childhood // Ein Lied aus deiner Kindheit
Day 30 – Your favourite song at this time last year // Dein Lieblingslied zu dieser Zeit des Jahres


Day 30 – One last moment

So the game is over when you have read this blog-post – I hope you´re sad about that, if not, screw you ;P

So, one last moment…I think it´s the toughest thing, because I already talked about moments before and this one should also be something really interesting…

*thinks for a few minutes*

I think I decided on a moment, and of course it is connected to a band – but, one difference:
I will NOT name the band, nor will I tell the names of the bandmembers, because they have participated in my CE-project-background-research and I promised not to name them.
Therefore: tough luck for you, guys.
Or: enjoy guessing 😛

There is this drummer, which I will later on just call “AH” and there is the female singer I´ll call “LH”.

With AH I´ve been in contact over Facebook because of the mentioned background-research, with LH I got in touch over twitter for some reasons, cannot even remember why in the first place – at times things just happen.

And there was that one gig where I got to know in last second that I´ll go there, and before this happened I´ve been a lot in touch with LH and I already thought back then it´s really cool…

Anyways, I went to that gig and met the band afterwards whilst they were signing at the merchandise booth.

AH was the first in line, and I stood there and asked “remember that girl with the question for the game…?” and AH was like “yeah, sure I do…but…” – me: “well, here we go, it´s been me..:” and AH was sooo surprised and happy to meet me, it´s been awesome to see the happy face and was like “wow, I didn´t know you were coming, this is so amazing” and all this kind of stuff…and I received (honestly meant) compliments, which was also pretty cool to say the least…and AH simply couldn’t get hold of the fact how fast you get to meet someone, as he mentioned “I wouldn’t have guessed to meet you this fast”…you know, miracles do happen…and if AH would read more of his twitter-stuff, he would have known…maybe he has learned from it *giggling*

Due to all the chatting I already caused quite some annoyment with the people behind me…but you know, at times I am an ignorant something and just couldn´t be bothered…and still can´t be XD

Next in line was LH, and when I said who I was she was even happier than AH had been to see me…it´s been really sweet, and again I got to chat at least a little with her – way too few minutes, just like with AH, but better than nothing…we got along so well, had quite some fun and the people behind me got even more annoyed…and I still didn´t care, I was just too happy…the two other guys from the band were irritated, why I was “stuck” with those two for so long, but well…they might have gotten the information later on ;))

And well, after having returned and having used twitter, I got following replies on there about showing up at this gig…

“@*insert my username* – great to meet u!!! Hope to hang more next time!”

“@*insert my username* – oh geez! Well, I’m glad it was worth it! We will def be back!!! Can wait to see u again!”

and then also this one:
“@*insert my username* – ur awesome, *insertshortform of my username*! Crossing my fingers that we get back to *insert cityname* soon:-)

oh and this when I mentioned I´d throw a party if they´d come to Jyväskylä one day:
“@*insert my username* – lol that would rule… Agreed…“

Anyways, so this was the story about the one last moment…

I hope you have enjoyed reading this, just as all the other posts before this one in the past month…

Day 29 – Your aspirations

I know I have fallen out of the schedule, but I´ve been just too busy and not feeling well enough to do this in time, but here you go…second last day 🙂

Wow, that´s a tough one, because there are so many parts in my life where I have aspirations…and at times they don´t even match with the other ones, so ;)) Anyways…

Well, I want to finish my studies in the normal time, as good as I can do it without destroying myself, without putting too much pressure on my shoulders…Also I want to do a good internship and build up many new (helpful) contacts during studying and the internship…but that´s just natural I guess…

I want the magazine to become more popular, way more popular and I want more ppl working for the magazine. More interviews, more stuff with more known bands…I want this magazine to be more than just a rising magazine…

It would be awesome to somewhen earn money with it, or shoot a complete tour of a band – or maybe just a photoshooting in general ;)) But I think first I whould aspire to just continue improving my skills when it comes to several fields of photography…

Well, this is maybe obvious…I guess a (longer-lasting) relationship would be something I aspire, but if it would be so easy as it sounds now, I wouldn´t have to put it here I guess *laughing*
Also, getting rid of my depressions or at least get them less often than I do now…and this is a huge aspiration actually because it´s hard to “achieve”…
I also aspire to get rid of my perfectionism, and I know I am on a very good way for it, I realize that already and it feels good.
Loosing weight is some long-term-aspiration, and a though job…I just love eating too much *giggling*

I mean, there is so much that I aspire but…its somewhat hard to put them in word and so far, what I wrote, felt like something that was not really getting the “point” of it, but well…

Day 28 – Something that you miss

Something or someone, that´s the question.

If it´s just about the “something”-part, it´s clearly that I miss my cello like hell, it somehow feels as if my second half was somewhat missing, even though I hadn´t played often back home in Germany lately – it´ s just that I want to have it around to have the feeling that I could always use it when I feel like it, and that is unfortunately not the case at the moment which is pretty sad…

And then there are Faun-concerts…I already mentioned the band before, but yes, I miss attending their gigs and just fleeing from reality and diving into a whole different world that allows me to forget about all problems, all the daily hassle and everything that makes me feel bad for a while…I kinda got used to it, it´s like that drug that makes you day, just that it doesn´t harm your health…and that there is no overdose *laughing*

Oh and: I miss German proper bread *rolls eyes* and Spätzle XD

Day 27 – Your favourite place

I´d say that there isn´t such as ONE favourite place…

here in Jyväskylä my favourite place is the lake of which you already saw photos, because it is nicely quiet and somehow I feel attracted by this lake and the nature and…I just love the athmosphere there…

And then there is in Helsinki, there is Suomenlinna…I just love it there already for ages…it´s so awesome there, the wide area, the pieces of the castle that are still left, the sea all around, the water splashing against the rocks…and it´s just adorable, especially in summer when it´s not that extremely cold, because it is always very windy there so in winter it´s a) hard to get there with ferry and b) if you get there the wind really hurts -.-

Day 26 – Your fears

I am really cared to fail with whatever I do, or that I don´t fulfill people´s expectations or, even worse, my own ones – I am a freaking perfectionist and at the moment I am simply just trying to get rid off this habit – but yeah, those things are really consuming me and I am really fearing that those might get just break me into pieces – same for depressions that atm are not that bad, but I have the fear that there will be the day that it´s gonna crush me again and take my thinking over, will take my activities over, my planning, behaving and whatsoever…
Also I am afraid to loose those people in my life that grew to my heart – no matter if through a fight, some other less bad things or death :S

So, failing, loosing and my depressions are my main fears I guess…

Day 25 – A first…

hmm…a first time I wore warpaint? Alright, chosen.

Well, in some way I had lost a bet…but it was all jokingly but still, I dressed up for the Turisas-gig in Den Bosch (Netherlands) two years ago (I think it was two years ago) on Halloween…with one of my friends…

It´s not the end of the story 😉
Well, we had to do this in the public toilet of the theatre that was opposite of the venue XD
We locked each other up in one of those small toilet-cabins and coloured our bodies red and black…Turisas-style so…

The toilet walls looked, ehrm, coloured afterwards…or as if someone was murdered down…god, embarrassing…

So arms, breast-area, back-area and belly and face was coloured in the end…
And then a child came in all of a sudden – she ran out again, crying :S I felt SO sorry ;S
Some older woman came in and said she felt sooo sorry that the theatre-artists already had to get dressed and have to get their make-up on in the guests-toilet…good THAT was hilarious…

but well…the warpaint didn´t get messed up during the gig, but getting rid off that colour afterwards was just more than a fight *rolls eyes*
Therefore: first time, and last time… – that´s what I thought, but I learned: “never say <<never again>>”.

Day 23 – Something that makes you feel better

Music in general, when it comes to the bands I like.
There are some bands that mostly make me happy, which are Deep Insight, Turisas and Faun and Papa Roach, same for Entwine..
But it´s hard to list any bands here, but those are the ones I mostly listen to when I feel bad and then start feeling better again…

Looking at photos of gigs I attended, mostly selfshot pics, photos of me and musicians and all this makes me happy again, and partly even gives me chills because I have those lovely flashbacks to those moments which is something really sweet.

Also daydreaming is helping me to feel better – well, at least it kinda brings me away from unpleasing thoughts for a while, so it makes me better for this certain while, but then I just crash back into reality ;))

Last but not least, friends. Friends who understand me or try so hard to do so.
Real friends.
Friends, who at times, seem to know me better than I know myself.
Those people who always were and are there for me when I need them. Whose warmth even is transferred through internet, just with words. I love you guys.

Day 22 – Something that upsets you

Being not honest upsets me. Lies. If you pretend to be someone you aren´t, if you pretend to know people you do not know, that upsets me.
Be honest, even though at times it might look rude if you say what is the truth, but towards me just be rude because I am not stupid enough to believe lies, spit right into my face pretending to have said the truth.

If I ask someone for an opinion, I don´t want to be lied at, and I don’t want to get a nice answer just for the sake of being polite. If I ask for an opinion, I ask for honesty. If you cannot handle this request, don´t cross my path, you might end up being traumatized otherwise.

Also it upsets me if ppl. tell me I am rude because I am honest. If you ask me what I think, I will tell you straight away without trying to make it sound all nice and good – why should I if that isn´t my opinion? Can´t handle that? Don´t ask me. But just don’t be pissed off when you asked me and were told my honest opinion, which at times surely might not be pleasing you fully.

It upsets me if you feel like you´re someone better because you have money, seen a band more, know other people or whatsoever – what is the point? I mean, seriously, this showing off just pisses me off and well…

Oh and what also upsets me pretty badly: if you have problems with me but just don’t let me know and instead just treat me like a pile of shit once and the next time you pretend/are nice again. WTF? I hate it, it confuses and it hurts. Let it be.

Don´t talk about people saying “my man” or anything like this if you don´t even know the person well – what is it about, you want to own the person, nice, but please, stay on the floor, daydreaming and dreaming is nice, but just don’t be THAT fangirlish to really think it might become reality. Grow up.

Talking about such behavior – why are people always trying to desperately and violently beat their way to frontrow at gigs? Why the goddamned hell did they not just move their asses in line earlier like those people, who are standing frontrow, did? And, why do those people then wonder if you beat back? Do they expect that you stand there and let it go like this all time? Am I your freakin puppet or slave? I surely ain´t.

What also upsets me is when you lend someone money and never get it back and just get kicked out of friendlists and all this kind of stuff. It´s poor. Face reality.

Okay, enough ranting even though I could go on for ages.