Half Marathon – Training Week 6 (13.11.207 – 19.11.2017)


Warm-Up 10min (HF zone 1-2)
Task 45min (HF zone 3)
Cool-down 5min (HF zone 1-2)

6.66km – what a nice evil distance it was, totally not intended but funny at last. My lung was struggling a bit with the cold air, with my scarf in front of my face it became better though. And then it was a mind-clearing run, I felt free and happy afterwrds. Totally worth the time!


Warm-Up 16min (HF zone 1-3)
Task 1: 6min (HF zone 4-5)
Task 2: 2min (HF zone 3)
Task 3: 6min (HF zone 4-5)
Task 4: 2min (HF zone 3)
Task5: 6min (HF zone 4-5)
Task 6: 2min (HF zone 3)

Cool-down 5min (HF zone 1-2)

Cold. Dark. Foggy. And when you breathe out, it becomes even foggier in front of your face. And when you actually only want to go back to bed, the run couldn´t be any worse. You would think. But it was actually a really good run, more with a focus on really being handling the heart frequency well rather than going to the limits just to be fast and faster…


Warm-Up 10min (HF zone 1-2)
Task 1:10h (HF zone 2)
Task 2: 20min (HF zone 3)

Cool-down 5min (HF zone 1-2)

I used the little bit of sunshine outside and started my run, and it remained sunny – luckily. BUt the run itself wasn´t all good though the landscape was, I felt like my heart rate was up more than it usually was and had no idea why. Maybe because I am fighting a acold, could be but…who knows. I just hope my heart rate is gonna be lower the next time.


Hoop Playtime (13.06.2017)

New week, new play time, new time for torture! To be honest, when I hopped onto the bus to Aerial Dance Center, I couldn´t have been any less motivated to even go there, to even leave the apartment. I felt weak, tired, and not up for being around humans but forced myself because I still really had to get to practice and work my ass off.

And that´s also what I did – my warm up was probably the last good that I have ever done, simply because it´s this necessary evil for me in my head – I need to do it before the actual fun can start, and I really have a hard time to pull through my 15min of warming up routine. Well, routine is overrated – my warming up something randomly put together as my brain functions as a black hole.

So let´s start with writing about the easy stuff – I like to hang around and the back roll was already easy last time, but I was not really happy about my balancing and leg position yet – and today I tried to feel myself more into it, and look at the difference below – I was surprised as well, because it felt like I didn´t change much at all. and I feel it now looks much better though it´s a tad more heavy on the body.

Then continued with my fully hatred position where I always struggled and last time failed to take off my right arm as I should be doing it for the choreography (you can do without, but then you look even more like a noob than you already do anyways, and I am not really keen on THAT).  And after how it felt zillions of tries, bruises, scrapped off skin, swearing, frustration – it worked twice, and this is the capture of when it finally worked – I mean, the normal position was no problem today, but…it´s just the daily shape and nothing to rely on unfortunately.  Plus, my left arm shows some strained-symptoms again, like back in the days. And that´s really odd because it comes up just since I started practicing this one position again…I don´t get it.

After something tough comes something easy, I´ve been not really struggling with two positions below at all, as they´ve pretty similar to what I´ve don already before and don´t need that much flexibility or anything, and they look good – unless you´re a fatty like me, then the bird looks like it´s been overfed xD I can laugh about myself and that´s pretty important, especially because not everything always works and looks well on the first try, and the angle from below from the floor is also not the best…ah well, you gotta cope ^^

Splits! It´s all about spreading your legs (no, not in a dirty and sexual way, dare you!) – and I am happy to see how much the split-try looks better already compared to last time. It´s been a spositive surprise for once, and I enjoy such surprises so much…and still, those two positions I enjoy a lot, they make you look so flexible and sexy even though you mostly just hang there. Okay okay, no, that´s exaggerated, because you do need strength in your body all the time no matter how relaxed it looks, but it´s less bad than other positions and moves.

And last but not least – easy stuff that is more a repetition from what I knew already before and still need for this chorography, so it´s more of a warm-up and cool-down move stuff even though you do need indeed some flexibility. In the early days that´s been making trouble but now it´s become one of the most confident ones that I am actually doing…funny how things can change. Anyways, peace out!

Hoop Playtime (08.06.2017)

Wow, it´s been the first playtime in a while, and it felt weird at the start because I´ve become so used to actually having a certain warm-up routine dictated by my teacher without the need of using your own brain. And there I was, needing my own brain – sounds hilarious, but makes a difference and I know I still do not get anywhere near the warmed-up level for the playtimes as I am when in class. So I warmed up, and then had a look at what was done during the last class because I really needed to catch up to be up to date with all the moves and positions and annoying transitions.

And what I spotted didn´t make me that happy to say the least, but no can do – my totally hated position which at least worked a bit better now (seen above on the right). But the problem was: it was an addition where you had to let loose of the hoop with one hand. And that simply did not work no matter how much I tried. Maybe I need to shift my bodyweight even more, let´s see how it´ll go during my next playtime and training session. It just needs tons of repeating and ignoring the pain ^^

The left move on the photo is pretty easy, even stough it feels rather unstable up there – but you just hang yourself in there with the arms (never mind the bruises on the upper arms) and then try to push away the hoop as much as possible so you can get into a split (or sort of). That move never made any troubles for me, as I enjoy everything that sort of means you go into such a split – even though I am far away from actual splits, but anyways.

And here you see above two fully hated positions, on the left it´s a variation of The Fish from what I know – and the right one, I have no idea, you just drop your left leg and then try to get it up there. Whilst the fish still works okish, whenever I remove the left leg I slip and slip and slip and have a terrible time to get back into the hoop again and I have yet to figure out what I am actually doing wrong there, because I am more than clueless. Maybe I should try without socks or so, but I am not sure if that will not maybe turn out really painful…It possibly looks cool at some point, but right now it rather looks like a whale clinging to the hoop…and feels like it, too.

Oh and have I mentioned we´re doing some kind of a roll again? Well I have no idea if you should be calling it a roll or anything, but I was surprised how well it´s been doing with this one even though that everything going into the roll-direction, especially backwards, is kinda scary for me now that I am a scared and worrying grown-up. But have a look at the video below:

Testing Lesson: Aerial Silk

The second lesson this day (as the Aerial Silk on was also on this Saturday) I already started with the worries about my left arm, trust issues, great thing. But I thought I would give it a try anyways, as I had to pay for it since it would´ve been too late to cancel. And at the start I was actually confident that it would be working good, but…I was totally wrong.

We started with yet another warm-up session that already brought me to my limits, as my muscles really struggled and started shaking already then. Was kinda hilarious to realize how much my body was done already.

Swinging back to get up and in position

The first move we did was probably the one that was easiest on me, because I had learned to overcome my fears when it comes to any kind of roll forward or backwards, but swinging upwards to then get into the position that you can see on the photo, was not as easy.

But what followed then was learning how to make a knot with the Silk and I really noticed that making a damned knot, no matter how simple it looked with my teacher, was quite a challenge for me. my feet aren´t made for that maybe, and coordinating feet and legs were just…I rather managed a knot in my legs instead of a knot in the fabrics. Somehow this didn´t work in like 90% of the times, and I was really frustrated and running out of energy.

Being exhausted and trying to do all of this was an ultimate challenge, and one I more and more gave up because I felt how my muscles started cramping and in the end I just quickly did that one move for the photo.

Conclusion? Easy. Even less my cup of tea than Aerial Hammock is. Too much sliding, too wobbly fabrics and everything…I cannot coordinate things like this hahaha

Testing Lesson: Aerial Hammock

Let´s face it right from the start – a heavy workout on Friday and then on Saturday right away testing lessons has been a challenge and maybe not the best idea. But giving in is not my style, so I gave full power right from the start.

And Aerial Hammock was the first one on the table and I was really curious because to be honest – I have never seen a class with the hammock, and before I started working out at this studio, a hammock was smething to lay down in and to relax somewhere. And not to do acrobatics in there.

The warmup was just slightly different to what I am used to from my Hoop classes, so that has not been much of a surprise but getting back into it was a challenge somehow, especially with the aching muscles the stretching and flexibility work was tough.

And then the lesson started with a few basics tipps and then the first move…I know the move itself from Hoop, but with the Hammock…nope, I always did it too slow, and then just got stuck and it hurt heavily on my legs…I somehow couldn´t coordinate the whole, hopeless case.

Some more moves, like the roll forward after having been hanging in the hammock was going rather well – but of course when I had to show it to my teacher it didn´t want to work…but once she didn´t watch anymore, it worked nicely again. But it felt really insecure, as I am used to the stability of the hoop to hold on to, but the fabrics just is wobbly and yeah…

One move worked really well, because I started loving it already when doing

it on the hoop…but you know what I noticed all along? That after my left arm injury, I somehow lack the trust in my muscles and am still afraid it might get screwed again…

But even if my arm would have been all great and everything, I noticed that Hammock clearly will not become my number one as I felt more comfy with the hoop already during the testing lesson and even more after the first course. But if I had to choose a second aerial course after Hoop, it would be Hammock.

Hoop Lesson 7 (17.02.17) & Playtime (22.02.2017)

The lesson – it went rather well, except for that one move that is the last one in the hoop as mentioned in the last blog post about my hoop time. And then we also did some final floorwork, which is rather easy looking at all the things that we´ve done in the hoop before.

But I still feel like an elephant doing the floorwork, it just doesn´t look elegant no matter how hard I try. I just feel fat. It is terrible how a few seconds of floorwork can totally destroy the feel that I had about the choreography. I. Hate. Floorwork.

And also we started repeating to really hit the change points and be in time which I really struggle with because the music is just sounding all the same and it is hard to really hear where to change and go into the next position. In the last lesson we will be practicing this over and over again. My poor nerves.

The playtime…I went there with the slightest hope of things maybe going well and boosting my ego a tiny little bit. But I didn´t have high hopes and therefore was quite surprised when things were going really well.

The roll forward and getting back up again afterwards has now a 100% chance to be working even though it is not a 100% how it should be like, but I am getting up again and don´t look like a strandled whale anymore. I am totally fine with this, I really dropped perfectionism there. Simply because I dunnot have time for perfectionism now anymore.

The thing from last week´s lesson now also improved LOADS, by now it has a 90% chance of working, which is such a huge improvement which I really had not imagined at all. No idea why it improved so much all of a sudden, it just worked most of the times now. Maybe because I just dropped the pressure, lord know. I don´t really care, as long as it works 😉

So yeah, it went well except for hitting my ankle against the hoop really hard and well, the hoop is solid. nothing more to say about this…

Hoop Lesson 6 (10.02.17) & Playtime (14.02.2017)

LESSON The song is coming to an end, my teacher said. At least something, as we just learned the very last move in the hoop since afterwards and for the rest of the song there is gonna be floorwork only left (not sure if that makes it any easier or not, I kinda dread floorwork anyways). I always look like an elephant trying to look delicate when I am doing floorwork. Nothing for me, really.

So the repetitions of what we already did went rather well, the usual struggles with the roll forward and afterwards getting back up again as I somehow cannot swing enough to get back up fully. And I have no idea what I am doing wrong or should be doing differently in order to really succees. This is also partially the case because my hoop tends to be too low and then I smack my foot onto the floor which does not make it any easier to be saying the least.

So yeah, that last move or rather position…I simply couldn´t get it working, it feels for me as if the worst move comes at the end of the choreography when I am not even having any power left anymore to really put strength into my muscles. Oh and, THIS is the position.

PLAYTIME I had actually planned on taking some shots of that latest hate move aka swining up after the roll forward as well as some shots of the linked position that I struggled with, but as both were not exactly working out as I had wanted them to, I ditched the plan. I didn´t feel like sharing halfway working poses, though it´s better than nothing.

Anyways, the roll forwards is working rather smoothly now, the fear is pretty much done, the stretching after the roll works fine and – yes, improvement – I now managed to have a 50/50 change to swing enough to get back onto the hoop again. Mostly look rather retarded and not smooth and elegant at all, but at least I get up, and that´s my main goal for now. But being clear, this 50/50 chance doesn´t exactly qualify me for being a part of the performance night unfortunately.

The linked position…well. from 1 out of 7 tries in the lesson I scoped up to it working somewhat in 2 out of 7 cases. And this is what worries and pisses me off a lot at the very same time. I am ambitions, and I cannot bring any self-patience along in such cases. I am frustrated, especially because I have no idea what I am doing wrong or what keeps me from getting it working. And that is the damned very last position in the hoop – it´s like stumbling and falling on a meter before the finish line…

Hoop Lesson 5 (03.02.17) & Playtime (09.02.2017)

The lesson was…well, let´s be honest, I was frustrated. And still am. Simply because I felt so secure and I thought I was going strong, my ego was doing good. Until it came to this damned roll forward that we learned at the end of that lesson and my brain just blocked. Whilst during my childhood I was always enoying any kinds of rolls, no matter if forward or backward, high up or on the floor…and now I am dying when I gotta do this 1.5m up from the floor. Again there was this fear of my arms not being able to hold me, the fear or of falling right onto my damned face. I was full body stiff, like I had a stick stuck up my ass. I think I´ve never been that close to crying during a lesson because I was so full of hate for myself. Sometimes I end up overly motivated, and my perfectionism is just standing in my way again. Most of the others in the course managed to do it seemingly without problem…didn´t make it any better.

Alrighty, at the playtime I had just one goal – to minimize my fear of the move that you can see on the video below – yes, I am recording myself to spot mistakes, like I figured I tend to bend both knees and make it therefore even harder than it would be if I did it correctly like I nearly do in that video. I struggle with sliding my hands down enough during the move, and thuse stretching and bending my back backwards like in the end of that video is really hard. I somehow need to fix this problem, yet I am not having the slightest idea how, because sliding in the hoop with tape around it is impossible. You might say I shoudl just take one without tape then, right? Easy said. But thanks to my hands getting sweaty really fast, I struggle with all other figures then because I lose grip pretty quickly. So I need to adapt and somehow make it work. Gotta get creative there.

Hoop Lesson 4 (27.01.17) & Playtime (31.01.2017)

Lesson 4 already, means half of the course is already done and it feels like so little time and so few lessons and so much choreography left. Well, at least I think there is much still coming, because the song is really not that short. Or seems at least terribly long. And I still haven´t really become friends with the song itself, even though the choreography so far is beautiful and matches the music. I am always happy when it is over, because that music is just so terribly boring.

I was happy when I heard that I seemingly made progress, so the last playtime really paid off at last. My flexibility was good, and the newly added elements were also working rather well. At first when doing a new trick, I was just sitting in my hoop
and was like “uhm, let me think, what about NO?” – because it looked really instable and surely it ain´t too stable. Nor really easy, but also far less scary than it might look to others and to oneself when seeing it at first. Practice is the key to success, and sometimes my fear or falling is still standing in my way. It gets less every time, and I learned to trust my hands again, but still.

And in combination with the music I am still not really going hand in hand, because I am lacking recognizable parts in music or lyrics to remember when doing the choreography and timing the moves and positions.

Playtime – means repetition time, fighting time, perfection time or just freeing the mind and I gotta admit that it went rather well, though I always tend to forget certain parts of the chorography – probably because I hate this one figure, whilst the rest just works really fine. More or less. As I am not really into doing spagat, I need to practice this more so that it works better when we gotta do something similar in the hoop because right now it looks rather retarded still. Annoys me loads, to be honest. But no can do. Work hard or go home, and I prefer working hard, even though my hands would prefer going home more and more. More blisters, more peeling off skin…but I enjoy every second of the course until now, pretty nie ego boosts at time.

Hoop Lesson 2 (13.01.17) & Lesson 3 (20.01.17) & Play Time (24.01.17)

Well, there is not much to say about Lesson 2 from Friday 13th (13.01.2017), simply because I had felt stomach sick for the whole night and day already- but still I attended. After the warm up and the first repetition of the Delilah move my stomach had decided that it clearly does not want me to continue anymore, I felt like throwing up or fainting, or both at the same time so I went home to recover. Kinda sucked because I missed out on quite some parts of the choreography, but health comes first as I need my body for a tad longer still.

Then in Lesson 3 (20.01.2017) I had quite some things to catch up with and to be honest, I was really struggling with the speed they were going through this. Sometimes my brain is simply slow with getting how to things, especially if it is after a long day of learning and sitting still. But once I got it, it went rather smooth – my bruises all over my body are telling a different story, but no can do 😉 What I really struggle with is stuff where I need to be head upside down, because of  all the stress I have I tend to be feel a tad dizzy, and that really doesn´t make it any better, and I have to have my eyes open…
The playtime (24.01.2017) then went really well, I practiced not only what I need for the choreography but put an emphasis on repeating those moves also for the side that is not needed in the chorography to ensure I will not develop a hyper strong side and a terribly weak one as it happened to me when I still did pole dancing. I enjoyed the playtime, being able to keep on repeating things over and over and trying new ways to get those working – the devil´s in the details, and during the lessons at times I feel like we´re simply rushing through. I am a person loving technique, and the playtime clearly does give me the time for living that attitude a bit more 😉