A little update on some of the topics that are currently on my mind – I am not exactly experiencing anything fancy, so these things are mostly thought…but it´s a start, right? 😉
Corona
Let´s be fair, I couldn´t be more sick and tired of homeoffice- I mean, it´s great to be on your own here and there and once a week it clearly is a benefit, but it´s been like this for 15 months by now. No, I am not at the homeoffice all the time, most weeks it´s 2 times at the office because it´s my only social contacts since Corona started.
And I am so extremely tired of just everything. Even the small steps into a more normal life again just don´t make me happy anymore because I am tired. And it´s creepy to look into many tired faces with exhausted smiles. I don´t even feel like going to the restaurant anymore, all I wanna do is curl up in bed and sleep until this is over, until normal concerts are possible again, until I have real distraction and a chance to clear my mind again. But i don´t even wanna take a guess how long this is still gonna take…
Weightloss
…or rather: the opposite. My thyroid had been checked as I was not losing weight at all despite being in calorie deficit, and the result is that seemingly all is good. So now it´s been 1,5 weeks that I am using some pills that usually are for diabetes patients but also have been, as off label use, used as weightloss help. Approx. 50% of the patients had weightloss, and thus we though we might give it a try.
Let´s be fair: I haven´t lost a single gram, and I am sick and tired of it. I feel even bloated, feel like needing more sugar than usual and it somehow negatively influences my training sessions. Still 1,5 weeks and then I gotta have a talk with ma doctor, I am not putting up with it. Goal is to get some more testing in, like further thyroid tests and also maybe cortisol lavels or something that also influences and/or prohibits weightloss…
On top, and on my own expense, I ordered a DNA test for checking what my body can metabolize best, maybe this is gonna give me a hint what to with my eating to fuel up weightloss again. You see, I am really trying and grabbing every little chance that comes flying by.
I am really desperate and frustrated, because I know I am not doing anything wrong here but nothing positive comes as a result.
Tattoo
So if things don´t blow in the last second, I will be having my second tatoo sleeve session on Tuesday, getting my upper right arm now tortured and the sleeve finished up. Feels surreal once again, simply because the first session is two months ago already and I got used to the tattoo being part of my arm now totally. The weather forecast is unsure about the weather, the best case was 21°c and clouds and the worst case said 28°C – I am totally up for the coldest weather that whoever decides can bring on for that day. Heat and physical exhaustion, no thank you!
The only annoying thing about the tattoo is, that there won´t be any swimming sessin for two weeks, just when I started getting a hang of it again. But no can do, Corona´s fault that the second session was postponed from May to June…
Hella Halbmarathon
…well, I am still waiting for them to either say it´s happening or calling it off. Forst it was supposed to be start of June for news, then it was end of first week in June, now it´s coming Wednesday apparently. And let´s be fair, i wish I had transferred my starting place to next year when there was still the chance, as I am so sick and tired of this waiting game that it really killed my mood.
Plus, it´s only two weeks after my tattoo session and it´s summer and I am not well trained – this combination doesn´t exactly get me excited. And then paying for it, the drive and the hotel…i could totally imagine something nicer, like a fancy dinner at my fave restaurant or something like that.